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burtspants @ 2009-12-21T19:58:00

2009-12-22T01:00:10Z

remember that time i broke up with someone and all of his close friends decided to defriend me on facebook?? thats really fucking immature. im JUST SAYING.

also, remember that time I saw said person in the library and he couldnt even look me in the eyes????????????????????????????????

wow.

I love you!

2008-10-02T12:43:19Z

so Rusty and I's one year anniversary is coming up! Im really excited just because I've never gotten to one year with someone. I cant even believe I still gt butterflies in my stomach when I see him, or get nervous when I know hes coming over.
For our anniversary I requested tickets to see Rachel Ray cause 1.) he loves to cook and 2.) he thinks shes great lookin', so I thought it would be nice. I guess monday we're going out to dinner. I'm not sure what he got me, I have ideas, but I wont say them so I dont jinx it.

Last night he came over with a bouquet of flowers and apple crisp....for no reason other than he had no work and knew I had homework to do.

...FOR NO REASON!
I cant even believe that my boyfriend of almost a year still loves me enough to do random things like buy me flowers and make my favorite desert.
I don't think I've ever been in a relationship that has functioned as well as this one. We've had our fights, we even broke up for 2 days which were pretty much the most miserable 39 hrs of my life. But I love him so much and am glad Im still with him.

I dont even know what to write in the card, what do you write to the person that means the most to you? How do you even put that into words!?!

burtspants @ 2008-08-10T21:14:00

2008-08-11T01:17:54Z

after a 2hr long discussion on the phone, i drove to methuen friday night to spend the weekend with rusty...

...he made me APPLE CRISP cause he knew i loved it and knew I was coming.
then the next morning he woke up before me and made pancakes

honestly, best boyfriend ever.

light me up, johnny! (steve?)

2008-08-08T03:36:58Z

i just got my electric bill and my cable bill, it came to a whopping 250. also, I owe gap a 4 figure number (dont want to talk about it) and I owe the bank another number that I dont want to discuss. I havent even gotten my first pay check and i literally havent gotten a penny to my name. I resorted to selling my jcpenney credit cards for money cause I really need it...

living on your own fucking blows. well its great and all but fuck man. I just need pot....that would fix nearly all my problems right down.

melatonin down the hatch!

burtspants @ 2008-07-23T00:35:00

2008-07-23T05:02:20Z

ive been meaning to get to this thing for awhile but it just seems like i don't have the motivation to do so. all day i told myself 'rachel write in your livejournal' but everytime i got up the energy to do it something more important came about. so here it is.
i have been bumming around my apartment, cleaning every other hour to attempt to get the rancid smell out of the air. with work prospects becoming rather dull it is leaving me to do nothing but to ensure that I keep my apartment SPOTLESS and smelling like pine sol (the good kind, not the pine kind). I've gotten myself into quite the financial burden (something i would never speak publically about but have decided to mention briefly for my own personal benefit) and am hoping that somehow i can back myself out of it and clean up my finances without the help of my parents, so far, not so good, but we shall see what the next few weeks have in store as I am currently employed.

speaking of my employment, i am now currently employed at the UMass Annual fund aka a small call center in which us students harass alumni and parents in order to gain much needed private funds for things such as making sure we have convenient path ways or painting new parking lots in really awkward areas of campus that should house plants. Regardless I feel like this is recipe for disaster (less than jcpenney was) luckily, i only have to stick it out till band camp which I think is August 26th or something. I can do it. I just need to keep in mind that money is the main objective...

moving on. the reason for my moving up here was simply because i could not find a job at home. It certainly was not because I wasn't putting up a fight, I was putting up quite the fight, but it got too late to start looking for something that would hire me for the short amount of time. Luckily, UMass in the summer is all about temp. help so i was able to find something rather quickly. Unfortunately, moving up here does have its price. All of my friends/boyfriend are else where with the exception of a few and I am forced to live with Jon, a person I haven't spoken with in a year due to a friendship gone HORRIBLE. That was awkward for awhile but I think we sort of got over that hump. So I have been hanging low (realll low) and not doing much but being a neurotic 20 year old house wife to no one. I think its good training...

My terrible luck with jobs is only just the surface of the disgusting luck ive been experiencing lately. I just lost a $1500 necklace that my mom bought me for my birthday and just thinking about it makes me CRINGE. I am hoping I find it, and am HOPEFULL that it will turn out. My bed broke within the first week I had it, my car got a flat, the air conditioning in the apartment broke, my cable modem stopped working, I couldnt (cant) find a job, I finally found a job and after I was certain I got the job they called me the day I was supposed to start telling me they were no long interested and lastly found Jon's pubic hairs on my toilet (oh yea and got to share my apartment with his girlfriend who ALSO hasnt spoken to me in over a year). Needless to say everything has pretty much gone to shit. Somewhere in there my mom wasn't speaking to me due to some financial issues she came across(yea shes awesome and opened my mail). Basically, I'm just trying to get this dark cloud over my head out of here, ASAP.

LUCKILYYY....there have been a few notable people who have helped to ease the utter shittiness of life up here in amherst (or just my life in general) Launey's a great friend, I talk to her more than I talk to anyone else (besides russell) and shes a good person to talk with. She has the personality of my mom but has more of an understanding. I really appreciate her friendship, perhaps more than anyone elses friendship as her and I understand each other more than Ive ever understood another girl (which is saying a lot cause im pretty sure ive only had 2 really close girls in my life those being amanda and korey). I can talk to launey about pretty much anything, and shell give me the most honest answer ever which is not always what i want to hear...but ALWAYS appreciated. Next theres Rusty. He pisses me off...a LOT but he's just ALWAYS there. It's like ill be bitchy but he just takes it? Im amazed with him every day i dont even know why he puts up with me but of course i welcome it. He just went through a VACUUM cleaner to see if he could find my necklace....a dirty, nasty vaccuum, if thats not love- i dont know what is. He's been the only boyfriend that has had almost all of the qualities I look for including the ability to put up with my piss ass moods and nastiness. And while he may not ALWAYS do the right thing, as soon as we talk about it he makes a change. At least once a day something reminds me how lucky i am to have found someone that tries his hardest to be the best. and when everythings going wrong, its always nice to hear a comforting voice. Next theres dad. My dad is pretty much the most awesome guy in the entire world!!! Love him. My dad can be a bitch some times but for the most part hes the coolest guy around and helps me out way more than I should be helped. he was there when my mom wasnt talking to me which is always nice and hes coming out in 2 weeks to come hang out with me. Im sure he'll drag me to some ridiculous antique place to look at absolute garbage, but im sure we'll laugh.

As for home...I got nothin. I don't know what happened but everyone pretty much dropped off the face of Earth, or maybe I did. I still don't understand my friends and i've known them since middle school (some even elementary). I got nothing. I pretty much just went to work and hung out with my mom and dad every night. And once I quit jcpenney i struggled rather desperately to find a job and when that didnt work out i just said fuck it and moved back up here, knowing that no one had even contacted me or tried to for weeks!! Maybe it was something I said or did, but I don't really feel bad for not saying bye or making any attempts to get everyone together. it takes TWO to tango, and I was tangoing alone for quite awhile.

On that note, I hope you all are enjoyng your summer, summer-banding and what have you. I do miss the breeze of LI cause I can tell you this, up here in the pioneer valley the air just lingers over you like a bad habit and its hot as FUCK in the middle of the day. Im pretty terrified of what my electric bill is going to look like but i cant help but use the central air...its just too hot not to.

This whole living alone thing? it's not half bad. I was a little scared to go to stop-n-shop by myself without my mom or dad...it felt a little unnatural because the last time i pushed a cart without my mom or dad demanding what groceries to get, i was 5 and was with my grandparents pushing one of those baby carts (which were AWESOME by the way!). Everything is expensive and everything costs money, and i know thats obvious but when you are forced to pay your own bills and do these adult like things, it gets slightly over whelming, at least for me. The best thing I do is clean...clean, clean clean. It really is a good stree reliever and I get to sit down and be satisfied with the smell of clorox and pine sol lingering in the air.

Im not sure how long this has turned out to be but im sure its turned out too long already. I miss my friends from UMass and cant wait for them to come back...but until then.

i forgot how stupid this shit is, man. I probably just sound whinney. fuck.

burtspants @ 2008-07-20T16:29:00

2008-07-20T20:31:27Z

i'd rather be feared than loved.
at least when people fear you they attempt to please you as much as possible to ensure you won't get angry. when youre loved, that never happens.

unfortunately (or fortunately) i come in contact with people that i know are afraid of me...like today! and it just makes me laugh because you have nothing to be afraid of. sorry you lack tact and wit to bark back at me, i'd welcome it openly.

i wish we got the office free on demand.....darn

burtspants @ 2008-07-08T16:59:00

2008-07-08T21:01:32Z

so i'm in amherst now...full time? i moved up here for the rest of the summer. sorry if its the first time youre hearing that, no one called me from home in like 3 weeks anyway so I assumed it would be stupid to tell you all. im here, struggling just as much but at least im alone (sort of). I'm about to go attempt to find a job..the maintence man was supposed to come but I guess he takes just as long as comcast. speaking of which, i get free on demand movies which is great seeing as at home all I had was basic.

i kind of miss my parents already, who would have thought.
oh well

just an update on my life

2008-04-26T02:40:05Z

...I just got out of the hospital. I was hospitalized for 4 days. currently I have an IV running in my arm for the next 12 days..luck me.

i had some sort of un heard of bacterial infection and some other "gitis" that i forget the name of. something like only 1% of people get this...wonderful.

basically, what im trying to say is- dont ever be hospitalized. it's terrible and you do nothing but sleep and watch reruns of shows you dont even like.

my parents are wonderful though, thats for sure.

burtspants @ 2008-01-29T08:25:00

2008-01-29T13:33:08Z

i feel kinda bad for the people that have to put up with me when I have dramatic episodes of NOTHING. thats right...NOTHING. I think I've just always accepted the fact that I sometimes randomly break down and cry at the most inopportune times and just expect people to comfort me, not question why I'm crying or say they feel umcomfortable but to just UNDERSTAND that SOMETIMES I get upset and SOMETIMES I just need to cry to the people I care most about. Maybe it's because of what I have between my legs...

either way- the past 24 hours have been horrid. I don't even know why but I just want to go home- weird egh? It's not even like anyone did anything...thats the frustrating part. I'm just sad and I feel like someone pushed me and I lost my balance and now I've been tripping over everything. Perhaps if I could stop the world for like......15 minutes? Just so I can re collect...in fact, If I was granted a super power it would have to be to stop time... not even to change things...really just so my brain and emotions and all the things I go through in life could catch up with one another and I could maybe deflect the times in which I break down over something as silly as a comforter in a dryer (yea it happened...last week actually).

anyways...hopefully things get better. today is one of those days where I just need to be alone. period. I don't need my boyfriend, I don't need my friends...I just need me- because in the end, I'm all I've got and to help salvage this wretched mood (for no reason mind you) I need to stop talking and watch the golden girls...because honestly? they're the only girls who understand (not really though).

wellp, with that- I think I'm officially done writing in this. I feel like I say that All the time, but really...I've out grown it- christine, I hope you continue to write in yours because I enjoy reading about your life and all it's little...things? as for the rest of my friends...you keep writing too because it gives me something to do at work when I'm bored and I enjoy reading about your life.

so this journal has provided me (and others, perhaps) 5 years of solid garbage and really nothing of substance accept maybe to entertain me and to hurt others (which I know i've done).

really there was no point in writing this entry other than to type out how i feel and to tell everyone i wont be writing in it- not that anyone reads this, im sure.

um...yea.

i'm sticking with you cuz i'm made out of glue

2008-01-04T18:50:24Z

happy new year.
i'm glad i didn't get sucked back into the west islip black hole...
for those of you that don't know what that is- it's when you hang out with people from high school that you don't like but are forced to pretend you like just to maintain a somewhat social life while home.

so...instead of doing that- i decided it would be best to just go to massachusetts and hang out with people I genuinely like. TERRIFIC.

actually, it was fun. we stayed in boston for the night, watched the fireworks then took the T back to dartmouth. whatever. then i spent time with rusty, saw juno, great debaters....did the other shit. went shopping, spent too much money. ya dig?

life is surprisingly GREAT- i don't even understand really...nothing is wrong...except my moms being a bitch, but thats not much of a surprise.
my life is never worry free like it is right now....my only worry is that i have about 100 bucks to my name. oh well. im over that.
and im also ready to go back to school...i miss my roommate.

juno was great by the way- ellen page is so pretty...
i fucking hate this stupid thing...i dont even know.

burtspants @ 2007-12-02T16:45:00

2007-12-02T21:48:45Z

it's going to blow being home for a month and a week.
I'm coming back up to mass as much as I can.... i hate leaving here. I love it here.

i won't be living home again this summer (hopefully)...if all things go according to plan

ya know whats really cool about rusty? he's my friend. it's really important for me to be friends with my boyfriend. rusty may even grow to be my best friend...i'm excited for that.

crystal and i are getting real close, which is weird seeing as i only really become friends with boys....but i can tell crystal pretty much anything without the fear of being judged- which is pretty cool....

last night was fun- we all went to a black and white party...all the people that Im friends with were there, it was a great night. plus- black and white is classy.

niicee...
kbye

Baghdad ass up....

2007-11-09T04:26:45Z

everytime i come on this website and read my friends' entries, I am re-reminded as to why I quit this damn website.

sorry all your lives suck (even though im sure they really don't)
mines great though...

hahahahahahhahahahahhahahaha
hi adam

burtspants @ 2007-09-13T18:47:00

2007-09-13T22:50:52Z

I constantly have to remind myself while at school that my friends here aren't really as smart as my friends at home and a lot of them have a lot of growing up to do.

no one is as smart as adam
no one has the wit and brains of brian and amanda
no one is korey.

theres just no comparing. and no one who will ever understand like the aforementioned people. they just get it. my friends from home? THEY JUST GET IT. the get life, the understand the forward progression of things...

the people here?
they don't.

just a reminder to myself.

and thanks to adam for making my (emotional) back bone stronger than just about anything...
- - - - - - -
i'm not THAT person, I never will be.
I want to go hiking....

burtspants @ 2007-09-03T19:03:00

2007-09-03T23:05:53Z

whatever has happened in the past, whatever will happen in the future, please know I care so much about all of you, my friends. I would give you anything and everything I had to give and sometimes I feel like I lose touch of that.

so I'm sorry, for losing touch with the importance of our friendship, for letting things get in the way. Know that I would do anything for the people I love and hope that life brings you only but wonderful things- you all deserve it.

its been fun...kinda

2007-07-19T17:52:43Z

i'm done with livejournal...
i'll keep it here for kicks, communities,reading others journals. but as for this journal, there will be no material coming from my mind onto your screens.

i'm done.

burtspants @ 2007-07-11T12:42:00

2007-07-11T16:56:55Z

grey street by dave matthews band is sick. it's my new favorite song, really.

so here I am, the 2 and a half week grace period before I leave for the west coast with rehersal every night. first tour was interesting. some of it was what I expected, some of it better than I had expected, some of it not. because for the past 2 years I got to be a FAN and now I actually participate, things are a lot different. Watching phantom and cadets isn't so much "omogmgomgmog" anymore, I can look at their show and see that "hey, they work hard (harder) just like me and are performing their buts off...and, of course, theyre people too".

ANYHOW. drum corps certainly isnt for everyone, which make me feel good because i'm doing something that not everyone can succeed at, and I seem to be doing just fine. I can feel how much better I know my body now and how it works, my marching ability has increased ten fold, and...last but not least- in pants I went from a size 6-8 to a size 3. I don't know how that worked out, I don't even weight myself, but I know that my pants that I brought with me are pretty friggin big.

aside from drum corps (which I wont be explaining anymore because I know no one is really THAT interested and I certainly can go on for a real long time about it) living in dartmouth with launey is sort of odd. I share her house, her food, her family and her friends. It's cool to hang out and meet her friends because some of them are a lot like people from home- in a certain way. At the same time, theyre also really different. Lots of drama with her group of friends. I'm glad that my close group from home isn't like that, something that I'm really grateful for. Sure some people say things about others but nothing they wouldnt say to their face, the people here say terrible things then go see the person and pretend their best friends- I don't understand it. Maybe because I once DID have a group of friends like that and immediately stopped being friends with them because thats not how I am, and am glad that I have people like amanda and adam and brian and korey and company that just do their own thing and catch up when we have time and live our lives.

this whole experience is going to leave me a pretty different person. it has already helped me to change a lot of aspects of my life. I have finally realized that value of myself...that I have a lot to offer, both in terms of friends and relationships and I will no longer settle for the boy that chases after me. I have learned to trust absolute strangers, to be slightly more friendly to new friends (only not TOO much, you always have to be hesitant of new people) and to work with what I am given. I am thankful for what I have been given- be it an air mattress in a living room or a bed in an ex boyfriends house.

On a completely unrelated note- this summer marks my first pretty bad car accident with 5 people in my car. It was real scary. I'm fine, my car is alright I guess and everyone walked away from it but it involved doing a 180 degree spin on an interstate and going across 2 lanes of traffic. very terrifying.

All in all, I'm doing alright. I really miss my mom and dad- my family, all you guys from back home, just being home and living my life. But at the same time, I am doing something I really really love and getting a chance to perform for people all over the country and this certainly is a once in a lifetime thing...so I guess I just have to take the good with the bad.

I appologize for not calling people. I honestly have maybe 10 numbers in my phone. If you want to catch up just give me a call cause Im relatively certain I dont have your phone number. Also- wildwood, NJ is coming up. It would be cool if people from home came- if not, thats cool too Im sure youre all real busy making money and stuff...so whatever.

I hope you all are having a real good summer. I hope to see everyone before they go back to school- I should be back in NY Like mid august (15th ish?) so I'm going to make my best attempt to call you all and see you.

annnd scene.

burtspants @ 2007-07-05T14:00:00

2007-07-05T18:01:00Z

phantom regiment has the most beautiful drum corps show ever

with the flower duet and 2 fugle horns and it will make the whole stadium/world cry

ummmm back to tour.

burtspants @ 2007-06-12T14:30:00

2007-06-12T18:52:23Z

so. wow. busy. a little too busy for my own good. so much has been happening I feel like I don't even have time to think about the important things, but then I feel like when I've finished all of the things that need to get done, I have NOTHING to do (cause, ya know, I have no JOB!). Anyhow....we'll just go through whats been occuring (and by we I mean me)...

left thursday. hung out with nick, looked for a job, fell asleep in a parking lot for 3 hours, eric and I ended things, somewhat bitterly, ate dinner with launey's family, went to sears, bought whites for the weekend, went to sleep.

woke up friday. hung out with launey, took a shower, got eric, richie and tank, drove to spartans. got in trouble at spartans, ran most of the night, worked on movement 6 in sectionals, got in the car with launey, showered, ate shitty fastfood, slept.

woke up at 5, paraded, came back to nashua. practice in the boys and girls club for 6 hours. we had to go in the middle of the arc and play, it wasn't fun. showered. sleep

sunday woke up. launey and I left spartans hall, drove to boston, went to linos, drove to charelestown, saw the cadets, got a ride with bill salari, set up the arc, stood next to the cadets horn line and felt insignificant and soiled myself numerous times cause its the fucking CADETS!! did the parade, walked back to everett. watched a movie, showered, went to boston, hung out at northeastern. went back to everett, fell asleep.

monday drove to dartmouth, worked with launeys step dad from 930 till 630 at night. went to lakeville, picked up lino at the T, drove back to dartmouth. hung out. saw eric. spun for an extended period of time, talked. slept.

today woke up, packed my car, left dartmouth, got home- went straight to the verizon store, went back home, called my mother, went to my dads house, called UMass to fill a new prescription and called verizon to get a new phone.

those have been my last few days.
tomorrow I'll be home most of the day to wait for my phone and i'll probably start packing and doing laundry. wednesday I'll finish packing, go to the DMV, clean out my car get my shit together, pack my car. and thursday morning I'm leaving for a parade and I wont be back until August 14th (15th?). So in conclusion, if you want to see my at any point, um....either im when im online (which wont be often), call me tomorrow night once I get my new cell phone, call my house (631-321-9115) or wait until august? If none of these sound appetizing (cause youll miss me too much) there is a show July 21st in wildwood new jersey. I don't know what time it starts, but its easily the closest show, after that show we fly to oregon so thats probably your best bet. for more information on that show, dont call me. I cant use my phone on tour really, if you want to leave a message you're more than welcome to leave a message and tell me youre going but please dont call and ask for directions and all that- I wont have access to much of anything. Directions and times can be found at either DCI.org or SpartansDBC.org, it would be really cool if you drove to see me- I think a lot of div 1 corps will be at that show so it'll be a good time, plus if you dont really know what drum corps is or what its all about its definitely a good opportunity to come see and get rammed in the face by any and all drum corps. seriously.

anyway...so, I guess I'm moving to dartmouth thursday. which is slightly weird. the eric situation made it kind of bad, its probably better that we broke up but Im not sure if he wants me living with him or what his deal is... I hope we're both in an understanding that I WILL be alternating between both launey and erics house and he'll just have to suck up his pride. something tells me things with Eric aren't QUITE over...but whatever.

Life at launeys house is slightly weird...her stepdad is sort of odd, I worked my ass of in his office and he just kept thanking launey, he was like "Launey thank you for all your hard work today"...like SURE walter you got it, I just sat there and had my finger up my ass...whatever. as long as I get compensated for those hours im alllll set. The next obstacle will be to find a job which is proving basically impossible in dartmouth massachusetts. I have like 40 applications in at tons of different stores. hopefully i get SOMETHING, or walter will let me work with his moving company, that would be kind of sweet.

thats my life. i decided to go back on birth control, not even because of the sex...so far from that. apri really cleared my skin up at drum corps is DESTROYING it. sucks. so hopefully umass doesnt fuck up with that transaction. also- rosanna by toto is easily the best sound ever.

I need to get a hair cut. maybe ill make an appointment for wednesday, or tonight- that would be cool.
i need to do SOO MUCH, how the hell am I going to pack my life into a bag? UGH.

so yea- if you want to see me- give me a ringle I guess on my house phone
hope everythings good with everyone else.

ps.) in advance, congrats all the seniors!! YAY FOR YOU!!

thislll probably be my last every until....um, a very long time so- have fun on livejournal..

burtspants @ 2007-05-29T14:12:00

2007-05-29T18:30:38Z

40 Secrets About Yourself
Be HONEST no matter what.

1. What Is your natural hair color?
Honestly: golden brown

2. Where was your default pic taken?
Honestly: well since I don't have one on LJ, my facebook one was taken at yellow house

3. What's your middle name?
Honestly: Anastasia

4. Your current relationship status?
Honestly: in a relationship

5. Honestly, does your crush like you back?
Honestly: yes

6. What is your current mood?
Honestly: egh, ok I guess

7. What color underwear are you wearing?
Honestly: blue

8. What makes you happy?
Honestly: the feeling you get when you're completely honest about your feelings for someone else and they agree 100%, the feeling you get when you slam your horn down after marching at 208, the feeling of being with really close friends and laughing about really stupid shit, the feeling of realizing that life is good and you really have nothing to wory about...(that last feeling really only comes once a month or so, but it makes me happy never the less) and last but never least, sleeping next to my significant other (spooning) and getting a goodnight kiss on the forehead- all honest answers

10. If you could go back in time, and change something what you would change?
Honestly: Honestly- I wouldn't have gone back out with Matt for a second time

11. If you MUST be an animal for ONE day- what would you be?
Honestly: a killer whale

12. Ever had a near death experience?
Honestly: no

13. Something you do a lot?
Honestly: think, sometimes too much for my own good

14. What's the name of the song stuck in your head right now?
Honestly: i'll follow you into the dark

15. Who did you copy and paste this from?
Honestly: some random person- i honestly dont even know who it was I saw it- it looked fun

16. Name someone with the same b-day as you?
Honestly: Mr. Gilmartin did...but he wasnt my friend he was my teacher

17. When was the last time you cried?
Honestly: oh god....i dont even remember, maybe a month and a half ago?

18. Have you ever sung in front of a large audience?
Honestly: yes actually i have, but it wasnt just me, it was 350 of my closest friends too

19. If you could have one super power what would it be?
Honestly: I would want to be able to cure people of their problems. For instance, Sally is feeling bad about her boyfriend kissing another girl, I'd zap sally with my finger and she would no longer feel the pain and be able to quickly move on.

20. What's the first thing you notice about the opposite/same sex?
Honestly: stature?

21. What do you usually order from Starbucks?
Honestly: caramel frappacino

22. What's your biggest secret?
Honestly: most people wouldn't guess how I am sexually...and I don't mean that in a creepy way. But I think if people close to me found out how things went down in the bedroom they'd be a little surprised....honestly.

23. Favorite color(s)?
Honestly: olive green

24. When was the last time you lied?
Honestly: um awhile ago..i cant even remember, im a bad liar anyway

25. How amazing is your girlfriend/boyfriend?
honestly: I'm not going to give Eric a rating, I don't think thats necessary. Eric is amazing because a lot of the things I think and feel, Eric does too. For the first time I think ever (with exception of maybe one other boyfriend) I dont have to ask him to call me or talk to me about things or start conversations- he does it all on his own. He gives really good advice and really listens and he's one of the few people who really loves life and respects all the people he brings into his life and that's such a cool thing to me. He's also extremely easy to get along with and extremely easy going and doesn't have much of a temper in terms of talking or arguing. He also really cares, and tells me and I trust him....trust key word there. He's amazing because he's Eric...thats why and he is THAT amazing

26. Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows?
Honestly: heck yes

27. What are you eating or drinking at the moment?
Honestly: no

28.Do you speak any other language?
Honestly: egh I know SOME spanish and can understand most of it

29. What's your favorite smell?
Honestly: the smell around christmas time

30. If you could describe your life in one word what would it be?
Honestly: Ironic

31. When was the last time you gave/received a hug?
Honestly: I gave my grandma a hug about 20 minutes ago

32. Have you ever been kissed in the rain?
Honestly: yea, not as special as they make it look in the movies

33. What are you thinking about right now?
Honestly: how am I going to get a job/ should I move to massachusetts earlier than planned

34. What should you be doing?
Honestly: nothing, i dont have any obligations really...

35. What was the last thing that made you upset/angry?
Honestly: driving home from nashua, nh at 6 30 am

36. How often do you pray?
Honestly: several times a week

37. Do you like working in the yard?
Honestly: egh if im in the mood i guess

38. If you could have any last name in the world, what would you want?
Honestly: I like mine

39. Do you act differently around your crush?
Honestly: perhaps slightly more flirtatious that usual...but thats really all

40. Name one song that reminds you of an ex?
Honestly: for phil it would be everlong by the foo fighters or glue by neutral milk hotel or that song he wrote without you (which i still listen to btw), for nick it would be the UMass version of The wind and the lion, for matt it would be taylor swift's song that I cant remember the name of or hey there delilah. those are all the significant exes worth mentioning.

burtspants @ 2007-05-24T19:10:00

2007-05-24T23:20:41Z

just to clear up some slight confusion as to my whereabouts this summer...
which I thought I did- but I guess it wasnt exactly clear...anyhow

I will be here from monday through thursday for the next 3 weeks, I will be gone every weekend. THEN as of June 21st I will be touring a small part of New England for a week and half and then permanently living in mass/new hampshire for 3 weeks...AND THEN flying to the west coast to spend 3 weeks touring there (oregon, washington, california).

in conclusion, I won't be here really at all. I'm here for the next 2 weeks during the weekday only through monday- thursday and then the 3rd week I'll only be here till wednesday.

also- I'm on an extremely TIGHT budget. I don't really have a job since its sort of hard to find a job for 3 weeks but I'm hoping to find something at either parents' jobs. So if you care to hangout with me before I vanish until the middle of august- call me, we can hang out riding bikes or something free (cause free is better) or if you know of any job opportunities let me know.

and just in case you've been living under a rock- the reason I'm leaving is to do DRUM CORPS.
"But Rachel...I didn't know you played the drum!"
"I dont"

A drum and bugle corps or drum corps is a musical marching unit (similar to a marching band) consisting of brass instruments, percussion instruments, and color guard. The activity originated in the United States and Canada, but has spread to parts of Europe and Asia. Typically operating as independent non-profit organizations, drum corps perform on-field competitions, parades, festivals and other civic functions. The prime age for participation is 14–22, but the activity extends throughout age groups younger and older.
Competitive corps participate in summer touring circuits. Competitions occur on football fields and are judged based upon general effect, visual performance, and musical performance. Every year, each drum corps prepares a single new show, approximately 8–12 minutes in length, and carefully refines this throughout the entire summer tour. This focus on a singular show takes advantge of the large amount of time needed to honing and refining a modern drum corps program, with a momentum that continues to build up to the last performance of the season. Musical repertoires can vary widely among shows, including symphonic, jazz, big band, contemporary, rock, wind band, vocal, Broadway, Latin music and many other genres. Highly competitive corps regularly dedicate 8–10 weeks on tour, practicing and performing their program full-time. Less competitive corps have less demanding schedules, allowing members to participate and still have a little free time outside drum corps. Some corps are not competitive at all, serving as education for youths, as alumni corps for adults, or for other traditional civic functions.

burtspants @ 2007-05-20T17:53:00

2007-05-20T21:57:08Z

imagine playing in a torrential down pour

it was aaamazing.
im wet.
im soaked even.
but we have most of our show complete and it's SICK.
if you don't come to see it youre wrong, completely WRONG.

i think im going to try and see if i can help out the 9th graders before memorial day during 8th period- that would be pretty siiicck.

this weekend went really well.
i love drum corps
(duh)

im not really excited about home, im not going to lie.
bahh
but i certainly dont want to stay here...i kind of just want to stay and do drum corps everyday of my life

burtspants @ 2007-05-18T16:54:00

2007-05-18T20:58:32Z

side note: I had a collage of all my friends on my desk backround. well, some were my friends some were of pictures I like, etc. anyway, prior to taping all of that up there I decided to take CRAZY GLUE ( i know, Im really smart) and past some saying I really liked up there, plus my name- one night when I didnt feel like doing a paper or something (cause thats what happens when I don't want to do a paper) anyhow...as im taking down the pictures I pasted OVER that crazy glue incident, I realized I had COMPLETELY forgotten about it. No problem right? WRONG. It was IMPOSSIBLE to get off. Now I start brainstorming- How do I get it off? Windex? nope. A knife? Nope. So I think, alright- I'll just sand the surface down and paint it so they wont be able to tell...but that'll cost money! What about sanding it down? but with what!!? A NAIL FILE!!! I've got those!! So i began to nail file the back of my desk and viola!!! IT WORKED. You cant even tell 20 minutes ago I had crazy glued magazine clippings that were eating the paint of my desk...

im so smart.
im fucking mcgyver over here
SURIOUSLY.
shrek 3 tonight!! woo.
spartans tomorrow!!
ERIC TOMORROW WOOOTOTOTOTOTOTOTOOOTOO
yea.

burtspants @ 2007-05-18T14:45:00

2007-05-18T18:46:28Z

my roommate pronounces my last name moriardi...now it may be JUST me but I really dont understand how hard it is to pronounce my last name. mo-rand-i? not hard AT ALL. but whatever... i dont have the heart to correct her, plus shes moving out today- her side of the room is completely bare, its depressing. kbye

burtspants @ 2007-05-17T00:18:00

2007-05-17T04:24:00Z

so ive been studying somewhat steadily for the past 6 hours for philosophy.
i plan on leaving work, getting in bed and studying until i pass out on my own.

this will probably be the hardest test i've ever taken in my life. it's a ton of arguments, a lot of information on philosophers and no multiple choice. it's going to be like 20 short answer questions and 5 long essays. it's going to be very, very hard and just thinking about it makes me very, VERY nervous.

cramming this shit into my head isn't working though.
i'm afraid that if I cram TOO much I'll just forget all the shit i already know, but maybe i dont even know it- I CANT EVEN TELL!!!

the good news is even if I do terribly on this- I still will do ok in the class cause I did awesome on both papers...soo um..yea. my GPA will still be pretty good, parents wil be happy and thats all that really matters....even though they dont pay for school....at all.

pray for me tonight, prease.........................thanks

burtspants @ 2007-05-15T13:04:00

2007-05-15T17:05:11Z

my life may end up being like Fever Pitch
i have mixed feelings about it